Another year has passed and its been just about a year since this blog was started. I had some lofty goals at the beginning of 2012 and managed to meet several of them, failed miserably at others, and still others are a continual work in progress. I started out 2013 a bit of a broken shell. Well, if I’m being brutally honest a very much broken shell of a woman and pretty alcohol soaked at the time too. I was struggling to find a part of myself that I had long repressed, being too afraid to let it come to light. Unfortunately the constant darkness in which I had hidden myself had done what it often does and had stunted my growth. So this last year was a year all about ME. About finding myself, putting myself back together, and leaving out the parts I didn’t like in order to create a new, so much more incredible, version of Jen.
So, yeah… It’s been forever and a day since I’ve been on here, I could make a bunch of excuses and such, but I’m just going to be straight with you all because that’s an important part of this whole baring my soul, finding my path, and helping others along the way thing. Writing hasn’t been a huge priority for me the last month. There, I said it (cringing as I did.) Like most adults my time is limited and for the last month I really had to figure out what my priorities were and make some hard decisions about what needed to be focused on and what could be put to the back burner temporarily. Writing, other creative endeavors, socializing, and even cleaning lost this battle. Awesomely enough, unlike the rest of the year where I continually fell into my typical pattern of over-scheduling the hell out of myself and miserably failing at getting anything done, I actually managed to accomplish a decent amount! So, while I feel guilty for putting my writing on the back burner and leaving every one hanging, I *might* have learned a valuable lesson about prioritizing and the effect it can have on your “to-do” list.
“Happy break up anniversary!”
The first words of my text to my ex this morning.
Now. Before you get all up in arms, saying how you didn’t think I was that vindictive or petty of a person, the rest of the text and conversation was lighthearted and fun. He understands my odd sense of humor and I’ve forgiven him completely, so there are no hurtful words or hidden meanings behind our interactions. He is first and foremost, a friend, as I hope and think I am to him.
In order to keep myself on track with my goals and resolutions for this year I’m going to be posting an update every couple of months that will give an overview on my progress so far. This will help keep me accountable and hopefully give you some insight into how I’m reaching my goals and resolutions. Continue reading